21 6 / 2012
But you didn’t have to
cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that now we’re
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Now and then I think of all the times you
screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I’d done
And I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
and yet, I still think she misses you.
It breaks my heart to watch my her go through this because you are a heartless person.
19 6 / 2012
I can’t not even begin to describe how mad I am at you right now.
Damn fucking right you lied. You told me that you had the surgery so don’t sit there and tell my mom that you didn’t.
First caught in a lie.
Second off, pretty sure that Grandma is still throwing her damn baby hissy fit because I threw one. She only took it out on mom.
Second lie, I pushed her away not mom
and god forbid I ever fucking see your face around town again. I will straight knock your damn ginger ass out. I will make sure to knock at least half your teeth out for mom then the other half for the rest of us.
All I fucking wanted when MY GRANDFATHER was dying was my big sister to go be able to lean on and have a shoulder to cry on because I felt alone. I felt like there was no one else I was wanted to lean on then my big sister. Whom I spent some of my best times with over the couple years I lived at your house with you over the summer.
I’m sorry I’m not good enough to be sister.
I’m sorry I’m not good enough to keep around
I’m sorry that my love for you wasn’t enough to look past all this
But most of all
I’m sorry your so bitter toward us.
I miss you so much sometimes.
So much sometimes that all I want to do is drive over there and make this right.
But then I remember all that’s happened and know that you would shut the door in my face and never turn back.
I hope you are happy with the bed you have made for this family.
This is your doing. Not mine Not dads defentially not Moms.
I hope in 20 years when you see how horrible it is to be treated like this you look back and wonder what could have been if none of this happened or if it got fixed.
By then, we will all be off doing something different.
Lives of our own.
and we’ll be happy sharing with our mother. Whom does nothing but care for us and would do anything in this world for us.
You are missing out on a pretty amazing life and family.
I miss you…
15 5 / 2012
I love how when a relationship ends within my friends, I get the short end of the deal.
I didn’t even do anything to you. All that’s going down is we are giving him a place to live not only to help him out but to help us out. Sorry we don’t live with our mommies that pay for us.
I’ve held a job for almost three years now because I actually enjoy living on my own. and sometimes that gets really hard and tight with money and yes wee do have to go my parents for help. But at least we try and do it first. I would never have a kid and move back in with my parents and have them pay for everything.
I’m sure in ten years when we are still really good friends with him and we happen to run into you I bet you that our life will be better off than your life will ever be.
peace out girl scout. have fun with your drugs.
I’ve got better things to do with my time. :]
is over now. <3